I haven't written here for a little bit. I really should though. Something big happened last month. I lost Jordan. It was a messed up breakup and I'm pretty sure he's still not ever going to talk to me again. He told my sister that he cares or cared about me, but I am like suicide to be with. I'm over him, but I wish I knew what I did so that I could fix it for future reference. I'll never know though. I guess some people just can't be fixed, even if they fix you. He was constantly depressed and there was nothing I could do about it. He brought me out of mine, this is true, but I guess I couldn't do it for him. A lot of people told me that when I was with him in the same room, I lit up, kind of like a glow. I hope I still have it even without him. Even though it's over though, I still love my life. He left me and I'm happy, which is so weird. I am content for the first time without having anyone. The hole in my heart has been filled without anyone here and it feels great. I am living on a high. Oh by the way, I now have a job. I work at JCPenney's. I dispise my evil supervisor, but I love my job. I have soooo much fun even though my feet are killing me by the time I get home. It's to the point that it feels the equivalent to an orgasm when i take off my shoes and plop down on the couch to relax. So now that I've rambled enough, I think I'm going to go for now. My point of this entry was just to update and tell everyone I'm ok and still loving life and living it to its fullest. It's beautiful and should be treated as such ♥